I've been to therapists and have had PTSD, anxiety, and depression. My family thinks I'm insane, hallucinated it, or and am an evil person for making up terrible lies. I told my sister he molested me as a child and she told my mom who told my dad. He must have heard me because I woke in the middle of the night and he was standing over me staring at my boobs. One night I was hot so I took my clothes off when I was sleeping.
I was in denial when I moved home so it wasn't an issue but then I remembered and it was extremely stressful for me. My mom and dad lived together and I had to move home because I'm in college and other reasons. My mother once spoke with me about it and she said it was ok because he paid for me and my siblings to get braces (my mother basically whored me out to my dad and my dad whored me out to others). He then said "your entire body was shaking". When I came out about my sister molesting me my dad said "you're mad at her but you're fine with me" and gave a sick, twisted laugh. I've been in denial about it most of my life (I had a couple flash backs but then went back into denial).
All of this happened when I was around 8 years old. My dad also whored me out to other men one time. I believe she listened to him because he had verbally and physically abused her for over thirteen years and that messed her up in the head. He told her to leave the room, she did, and then he did the rest of the stuff to me. He let her in, she grabbed his arm and said "you, you" in a shaking voice. My mother heard me scream when he performed oral sex on me and banged on the door. I became unconscious after that so he may have done more but I don't remember it. I remember one time he drugged me, kissed my neck, performed oral sex on me, bent me over the bed, tied my hands behind my back, inserted a vibrator into my butt, video taped it, and told me he was going to make a lot of money and I wasn't going to get any of it. There were many times when he would kiss my neck. My Dad sexually abused me when I was a child.
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